Interdimensional Erotica by grace mcgrade

Woman is man’s terrestrial link to divinity.Generously, women have reverberated into the cells and tissues of men, reverberating the abyss of consciousness from which we came, shifting and shimmering inside forever, like a madness. Leaving them achi…

Woman is man’s terrestrial link to divinity.

Generously, women have reverberated into the cells and tissues of men, reverberating the abyss of consciousness from which we came, shifting and shimmering inside forever, like a madness. Leaving them aching, brilliantly, with the familiarity of non-existance.

Some women have reclaimed their power to levitate above time, to desert linear thought and fragmented consciousness, to reconvene with the sacred. To exaggerate passion. They remember how to use their nocturnal emissions to draw light out of the dark. They remembered that in their genetic coding, there is a capacity for alchemy, a euphoric bliss that expands and also paralyzes.

Some women know when they are being thought about, spoken about and when they are being masturbated to, particularly when we have allowed for our relationships with people to extend beyond the physical. The partners we collect and then detach from can feel like phantom limbs, like something that got lost in the dark, still there, still itching, but not solidified in flesh. Some of us know how to invite the etheric embodiments of people into our world, how to communicate with the subtle ghosts people leave in our bodies.

I like to make men mad, I like to see their feverous, greedy eyes, their heated, interrupted breath, hungry to digest something unattainable. I like to provoke them with my magnetism and then pull away, drawing back the light in the room.

It’s like the sound of doors unlocking, the jarring, discombobulating potency of powered femininity, something non physical, something holy.

Tell me how it feels, my darling, to be hip deep in a goddess, to be lapping in the waves of a thousand luscious vibrations, each one stronger than the previous.Tell me about the wicked emotions that make you tremor. Tell me about how I terrify you. Tell me what faction of heaven I take you to.

My heart is full of you, my phantom limb, itching in your absence. I think of your scars as exotic tattoos.


If You're Into That by grace mcgrade

I’ll be your strangest friend and your lover and your cosmic mother.We can turn our family trauma into a three part musical and I’ll give you all the playtime you were deprived of in childhood. If you’re into polyamory, I can introduce you to all …



I’ll be your strangest friend and your lover and your cosmic mother.

We can turn our family trauma into a three part musical and I’ll give you all the playtime you were deprived of in childhood. If you’re into polyamory, I can introduce you to all seven of me, each one with increasing entertainment value.

I’ll pull jokes out of me like emerald silk and get rich on your laughter.

I’ll give you massages, stroke your hair and read your palm, and even sometimes your mind. I promise to give you a personal tour of the neon underground rivers inside of me. I promise to be delightfully spontaneous and predictably on time. If your bored, I’ll make you pasta while I’m blindfolded, or spend the day hopping on one leg. I’ll nurture your wildest dreams and grant all your wishes when I bat my eyelashes. I’ll be your sleepy morning beach, your nighttime lightning forest. I’ll be your meat, your medicine, your holistic cigarette, your favourite book, your most treasured ring, your flame, your flower. I promise to be your solar powered sex toy, your personal blissed out water gun, your daily micro-dose of ecstasy. We can run away to the desert, to the mountains, to outer space. We can psychedelicize suburbia, we can give the stars new things to sing about, we can conjure up mischief and bathe in chocolate. If you’re into that.


Only if you’re into that.



How To Find Happiness During The Collapse Of Western Civilization by grace mcgrade

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We drastically underestimate the soul’s compulsion for inner transformation. The longing to be in a constant state of transmuting, shifting, flashing, glimmering, unstill. The Universe feels this, is this. That's why it provides us with the limitless entertainment of our ever developing stories. That's why we are always revisiting the challenges it sends our way, spiralling back, providing our curious, metamorphic souls with a sporadic, vast range of unpredictable learning. Replenish and expand that desire. Let it make you explore the world, explore someone else's body, explore altered states and heightened emotions. Let it, get high on it, and be aware of it. We are looking for the answers so we can burn them up, get free and dream up better questions.

Stop normalizing pessimism, ignore the factions of reality that require you to dumb down your imagination, or tell you cynicism and nihilism are trendy. These are not Maison Margiela accessories, they are burdens, and contribute to a collective level of negativity that serves no one. Live in a universe of your own invention. Guard against the inclement weather of fear, let the tumult of things like traffic and death and taxes and politics be fossilized in the background. Let the insurmountable opportunity of invisible dimensions seep through you, endlessly. There, the present and future mingle like jumbled mirrors, and sometimes, you can jump through them. Let yourself become immune to regular life, let dancing and candles and intentions precede the laws of physics and logic. Let your ecstatic hope blur the edges of things, and make your only devotion to commit to beauty, to expose your own emotions fearlessly, to be dangerously truthful and heighten curiosity til it makes you overflow.


Wear magic underwear from moss, strawberries and hummingbird feathers. Swim naked at midnight in the abyss of the dirty pacific ocean. Burst into hysteric laughter while having sex. Invent a magic tonic and distribute it to angry family members. Tell your collegues they are characters in your lucid dream. Search for miracles in dingy places. Believe everything you do can be touched by canopies of angels and fairies. Confess feelings always. Be mischievously compassionate. Laugh at the generosity of the sun in the middle of bumper to bumper traffic. Contort your naked body into strange positions in the mirror til you are drunk on absurdity. Rebuild from your muscle memory of paradise. Distribute sparklers and glitter, particularly when it is not appropriate. Compliment yourself out loud and get rich on bliss. Roll naked in dirt.  Try to pay for things in crystals. Resuscitate yourself from the ancient amnesia. Get free.



For Esther by grace mcgrade

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you are the phoenix on the horizon

beyond fathoming

beyond strange

awake where earth meets sea

bounded by traffic on either side

you are a space nymph

an angel incarnate

drawn by fine spun gold

borne of the place where lightning struck venus

a red wilderness split apart by blue flame

anchored only

by the ocean of the impossible

contained by porcelain or glass

with pearl feet that command storms

and a voice that bleeds roses

there will be those

who wish to cage you

who envy your light without eyes to see it

who wish to enrapture your divinity

piercing, quaking

at the sight of your intangible mysticism

they may wrestle your feet to the ground

the way the moon pleads to the stars:

stay put.

but you won’t.

set your spirit free to drift again

upon the starry place

live vividly, truthfully,

in the effervescence of your most opalic fantasies

douse yourself

in the crystallization of every experience possible

screaming for discovery

metamorphosize your wounds

dance madly between tenderness and passion

leave no stone unturned

leave all inhibitions to the racing wind

achieve resolution through revolution

and let streams of star glitter fall in your footprints

when your eyes are tired

of being so wide and so awake

tired of seeing through veils and shattered shadings

tired of leaving light where others only leave shadow

live from your inner eternity,

the starry place,

they will follow.

imagined things by grace mcgrade

He thought about her endlessly.

He thought about how she seemed to carry the furious sun in her mane, and how she had more hair than she needed.

About the continuous redness of her plump lips, always pouting, slightly pursed open, on the brink of gasping something either absurd or profound.

About her cobwebbed eyelashes, concealing her giant topaz colored eyes, always twinkling with secrets and half grins. She was wickedly clever, too clever for anyone’s good. Wickedly funny, fawn eyed and awake.

He could still feel the aura of unreality she wore with her, the weight of her body on his, that made him vibrate and tingle with a sense of strangeness and simultaneous familiarity. They way her kisses clung to his throat like moistened stars.

He sought now, more than ever, to understand the inner workings of her universe, the subtle complexities of her mind. The way she seemed to levitate above reality, atom thin. Her nonchalance was a love spell like no other.

The hum of unmet desire and curiosity grew louder and louder in his chest, projecting him through a kaleidoscope of possibilities, folding in and out of each other like laser origami.

His imagination, which had always been a place of the deepest solace, was no longer enough. He sprung into action, backed by the fiery mass of emotion that she had ignited within him, his heart jerking and pumping from something that finally, wasn’t cocaine.

Uncertain Angel by grace mcgrade

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I believe that by giving problems a name, they tend to manifest themselves and therefore become impossible to get away from. If I remain in quietude they always disappear with enough time. But sometimes they bloom like flowers in my lungs and in a very safe, very soft space I can open my mouth, and they just fly out, like whispered fireflies. When I write them down I can transmute and excoriate them til they become just stories.

My perception of beauty and love has changed.
Sincerity and tenderness are beautiful, kindness is beautiful. Listening and not just hearing is beautiful. Observing and not just seeing is beautiful. It is necessary to remain open and looking for glimpses of the evocative and profound to be beautiful. Happiness and self love are strange new things to me, maintained with great delicacy and awe.

It is necessary sometimes to catch sight of someone immaculate, and exhale, without wanting to grasp them or own them.

The most beautiful and unconditional love is letting things roam wild, and always allowing them to come home without discernment. That’s radical love.

The familiar rigidity and protective layering I built falls away like silk.

I am learning to no longer glamorize people who hurt me, or fetishize my pain because it makes great art. I gave up tying  the fragments of unkind people with my unwavering heart strings, quantumly bound to their holy wars.

I felt a combination of blissful euphoria and deep premonition in my chest. He didn’t feel unsafe or unkind, but there was still an apprehension in my vulnerability, having come from people who couldn’t manage the obscenity of my world.

Sometimes it is safer not to tarnish memories by prolonging relationships. Expectations and emotions are so fluid, and memory can be tarnished by reality. For that instance in space and time it was perfect.

I wonder if his universe is comprised of whispers of me when I’m not there, in license plates and shop signs, coincidences that aren’t coincidences, just echos doused in my name. I wonder if hes sincere, if he has the capacity to see me- really, see me, or if I exist in spectrums of colors that he can’t quite reach. I wonder if I am safe in feeling the depth in him, or if I am just intoxicated by his sporadic evasiveness . If I am playing with fire, if I am letting a tired game enrapture me. The intensity feels familiar, like everything is happening simultaneously.  Lightning from a congruent lifetime, or a hurricane, thrashing, brilliant and warm.Like I am with the sky I was built from. It shapes me into something softer. Even with holes and missing parts, he aims for my heart with near perfect agility. I want to build a celestial clinic around him, immortalized by time, comprised of the stars, suns and nebulas that remind me of him, because his spirit is too bright for his body,


The Shadow Side by grace mcgrade

I wasnt born afraid of the dark, but rather homesick for other realms, at an unnverving and slightly inhuman frequency. I grew into a protective layering myself, feeling shamed, shaped and shackled by the grueling apparatus of societal illusion. In adulthood, hungry to reclaim the individuality that was stolen from me at birth. Learning to unlearn.

I have a propensity to collect people who live in the shadows, who bear no infatuation or affinity for the idealism that is so prevalent in my character. I experience an allure for people who are contaminated by inner turmoil. I believe that there is always a faction of ourselves which lives above the artifice of time and physicality, the all knowing version of self, the higher self. I am starting to understand that the people who live their lives in the shadow, have elected to. They have done so, so we can differentiate from light and dark. They have chosen it and they are the true warriors.

Without darkness someone(else) can’t have light, so they choose to live it and that is the true work, the dark work, those are the bravest souls, because a part of them has already come from harmony. Darkness is sacred, and lives in every one of us.

I feel like everyone has to interact with their shadow in some capacity, or else it runs rampant, concocting all sorts of sordid scenarios for life to throw at us, brewed of our own blood. Honor the discord so it doesn’t exist in the peripheral.

I have a dark shadow, and I love her, the adverse to my optimism, this catastrophic, uncontained, wrath that belongs to my polarity. Lilith, the dark feminine.

I am getting so drunk on optimism, that I hardly recognize myself. Sometimes it feels dissociative, like I have new neural pathways that feel foreign, and inside there is a punk rock teenager who has her arms folded and thinks “stop with the hippie shit”, but I still have irrepressible feral tendencies,  I assure her, like only wanting to wear black and wanting to projectile vomit on everyone at erewhon. I am bored of surface level. I am bored of being weak, trying to make myself smaller, meaker, stupider, for anyone else's comfort. I am silent in more occasions, solely because I refuse to summon any energy for participating in bland or uninformed conversations. I want to have the room to unravel, unfold and love as openly and wholly as I can. I am not easy in any respect, I have a habit of being inappropriately absurd. I have a hyperactive imagination and I like flirting with my perception of reality on a daily basis. I get high on cognitive dissonance. I am evasive and hard to capture or get a hold of.


Sometimes anger feels the best. I’ve noticed when I’m not getting enough intimacy, I will replace it with intensity. Aggression and conflict as a way to connect. Like some distorted love making. A tempestuous, volcanic orgasm.  I am great at it. Fury is sacred. Anger gets shit done. There is something inherently sexy about conflict, the unbuttoned reveal of dark, innermost feelings.. the below the belt jabs and sharp, lightning-fast magnetitude in tempered words.  

My shadow is calculated, attention seeking, feral and destructive. She writes about people she doesn’t like and then publishes it. She has a limitless propensity to collect secrets. She falls in love with people who are unstable. She leaves doors to the past unhinged. She has, on several occasions, made out with her ex’s friends while they were within a two room vicinity, hoping to get caught. She likes to stay out til four, to not text back, to chainsmoke. And of course, in her fullest form, she likes to assign paramount meaning to meaningless, and unhealthy flings. She attracts partners who act out her shadow for her, and likes to pick up their broken pieces and examine them. Dissect them, psychoanalyze them. Romanticize them. She gets addicted to the cinematic toxicity of people, who are like fairy tale characters. Only existing to serve as an aquatic mass she loses herself in.

She is an immaculate faction of me, whose appearance is less and less frequent- but I value her hunger for power and spontaneity and I would much prefer to integrate her than dismiss her, because even in darkness she is celestial.



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The Alien, The Cowboy and The Witch (PART THREE) by grace mcgrade

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(Chapters 1 & 2 in previous posts)

Chapter 3

Sedona was said to have vortex’s, portals of energy that could heal the sick and cure the sad. It hung above them, like the silhouette of an alien castle visible through prisms of light. It was the time when daylight mingled intimately with dusk, and the copper terrain lit up like a gateway. They approached it excitedly, Elle thinking that they might be on Mars, because everything felt slower, scarcely defined.

They went on a hike to explore the skirts and sheets of crimson rock, and when they got to the top, Adam sat sprawn legged and started stacking pebbles, his clunky boots on either side. Adam had never looked as beautiful to her as he did meditatively stacking rocks on top of each other with precision and care, with the ruby mountains as their backdrop. In moments he was so apparently a child, the same way Elle, with her ancient heart, was so apparently the opposite. She walked through the curved crimson rocks toward solitude. When she looked for long enough, the  jagged corners of the mountain appeared to contort into  wise mens faces. Sometimes she wanted to climb into the skin of the mountains, or trees, and live as a fractal of the earth. She skipped threw the mountain side, ascending up, up up, the dimming light reverberating on her gilded footsteps. She reached the pinnacle, and lit a candle she had in her pocket for Steve, her dead ex boyfriend. She thought about how he had always said that he was like a cat, with nine lives. She hadn’t been able to forsee, even with her tarot cards and knowledge of planetary movements, which one would be his last. Time stood still on the mountain.


They had both taken a flight from reality, and seemed to enter an altered state.In the delirium of what had been a very emotional, mystical day, they had forgotten to eat, so they went to a nearby supermarket. Everyone there appeared to be operating at a slower pace. When they returned to the car park, they stopped, heads cocked, mouths open. The stars glittered above them like jewelled insects, opening and closing. Neither one of them had seen so many stars in their lives, and Elle, who was convinced that she was from the stars, gazed up, longingly.  They were taken out of their trance by the appearance of a figure who seemed to come from nowhere.

An elderly woman with a big, leather brown bag had hobbled over towards them. “Excuse me, I’m sorry to bother you, but I need a ride to the Denny’s, thirty minutes away and I was wondering if you could help me.” she said, in a calm, collected tone. She had a surprisingly soft, young face for someone of her age and stature.

Elle had learned from fairy tales to never turn away a mysterious stranger, because if you were kind, some of them grant wishes. Adam was a little more apprehensive, but after a few meaningful looks, they both agreed, and they let her into the back seat. In the privacy of Adam’s car, she revealed that she was a psychic, a healer, and a vortex guide in the area. Elle, nearly jumped out of her seat. She agreed to stop off at a vortex and star lookout spot on the way to Denny’s.  They asked her countless questions, the main one being if aliens had ever visited the area. She replied in an almost robotic, dazed voice. “Space brothers and sisters. Yes we have been visited by Space Brothers and Sisters. I belong to the Great White Brotherhood and Sisterhood of Ascended Masters. Jesus Christ is the Highest Ascended Master. Some space brothers and sisters are good, and others are bad.” Her fingers were firmly clasped on the handles of her leather bag, the contents of which grew more and more mysterious.

When Elle prompted her with more questions, she responded with the same monologue, word for word. Adam disguised a laugh as a cough. For an instant, Elle felt a surge of anxiety, wondering if they had let a robot into the car, or if they were going to be taken to some secret CIA database, and she would be tied up and drained of her magic. She held her imagination back, knowing it often  got the best of her.

Elle shared that she had started doing healing work too, that her ex boyfriend had recently died, and what held importance in her life was changing. Before she could utter another word, the healer put both of her hands on Elle’s shoulders. “I initiate you into the Great White Brotherhood and Sisterhood of Ascended Masters. You should come to our mystery school. We meet three times a year in an undisclosed location to teach.”

Elle took a deep breath inwards, not really knowing how to respond, but whispered, “Thank you.”

They arrived at the Denny’s after what felt like a lifetime, and before the healer got out of the car, Adam turned to her and asked if she could help fix Maureen. She claimed to be able to active DNA, and cure cancer. She said she could, for $400. Then she led them both in meditation, and asked them to imagine gold pouring into their crown chakra, going through their head and filling up their bodies. When she got out and opened the door of the Denny’s to enter, a black cat walked out. Elle thought of Steve.

They headed, filled to the brim with molten gold, to go seek out the place to watch the stars. In the stagnant peace of the night sky, the mountains around them had turned to deep purple. They took out a blanket, and laid back, still excitedly chattering about the strange hitchhiker. There was a moment of dispute over whether she was legitimate, and Elle, who felt an unease growing in her body, didn’t believe she could cure Maureen’s cancer. This agitated Adam, who argued that Elle thought she knew everything, and she didn’t. Their bickering softened under the flowered nebulas above. The stars shone in foreign colors, hovering in space like butterflies, pirouetting and spinning around their heads, which were conjoined in the desert carpet. They saw shooting stars, mystical ecstasies vibrantly outlined in the atmosphere, caught in midnight silk. Elle longed to return to the stars, but was also relieved that they were out of reach. She thought, if humans could kill stars, they certainly would.