alien life form by grace mcgrade

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I don't want a man, I want an alien life form, unpossessive and more complex and mysterious than a man. Something immune to the acidity of lost wisdom. Foreign and complex, with hands that transcend time and space, and eyes that speak silk.  I want unreal happenings and delicate nights in outer space. I don’t want anything that will take me away from my pretendings, i want something that will add to them, glitter them, color them. I want extraterrestrial love making and time traveling waltz’s.

Urgent beauty and giggly truth. Feeling in excess.  Something that will take me away from the suffocation of the mass hallucination named reality.

I shouldn’t be so surprised when the people I idealize turn out, in fact, to be human.


I bet you think this post is about you by grace mcgrade

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It is hard for me to separate from what is my innately romantic nature and what is the inheritance of an ideal imposed by Disney movies and the tyranny of patriarchal culture. I am afraid that I have been taught that my completion arrives in the body of another. I yearn to break free from these mythological lies, to resuscitate my imagination like a doctor of dreams, to seek a love beyond wanting to belong to or possess another. When I was younger and more malleable, easily swayed and inspired, I was insistent only on getting lost in forests of people, both dense and rigid, wild and unkempt. Letting myself disintegrate in shreds, observing from three feet above my body, like watching the erotic melancholy of ruined black silk. Through my own loss, I could keep the enchanted chambers of luminous stuff hidden, and just fall, bottomless, into another.


I refuse to perpetuate the idea that love needs to feel requited or earned or deserved to exist. Love just is. It is an impenetrable essence, and if it's real, it can never be threatened. Therefore,I have been attached to the etheric embodiment of people without their physical manifestation, fallen in love with their absence, fallen even more in love with their potential, because then they stay fairy tale creatures, and my storytelling is never exhausted.  Perhaps I will always be in varying degrees of love with people, and they will falter seamlessly into one another, departing as one loss. But, a discreet sun is tearing things open with age, reminding me that I have to make the pattern better.

I have to anchor down something real, no matter how attached I am to an invisible ideal. I don't want to exist only at night. I want to share my secrets like oysters and champagne. I want to be your mystery erotica. I want to be vulnerable like white roses. I want to know that you’ll be here, in the flesh, in your uncomfortable skin suit, to watch me unravel, no matter how long it might take.


LEO LUNAR ECLIPSE BLOOD MOON RITUAL by grace mcgrade

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Leo. Ruler of the heart and creative capacity. Evening gowns made of sunlight. Doc Martins that sing songs when you stomp. Drawing on your childhood walls. A burlesque performance in a supermarket. A toddler in a tiara throwing a tantrum. A firework display of orgasms. The impulse to say the revealing thing. Blood pulsing through your heart.  The drive to leave clues of your inner world on the outer stage. And above all things, attention.


This Leo Super Blood Moon Eclipse is just as ostentatious, powerful and lasting as it sounds. It is passionate, it is full, and baby, its all about the heart. Leo teaches us that we have the power to CREATE OUR REALITY WITH ATTENTION. It asks us to lead with the heart, and draw forth dreams with vivid actions. Our hearts are getting more open, and as a result, we feel more. The separation from the astral plane of imagination and the physical realm is getting thinner, and what we pay attention to WILL be realized. It is time to let go of any delusions, half-dreams or narratives that interfere with our own radical self love.


In order to actualize our wildest, wettest dreams, we have to be willing to expunge and release any inner narratives than interfere with our own divinity.   If there are people in your life that don’t see you as a completely unique, beautiful, fractal of divinity- release them. If there are things in your space that don’t reflect your glittery fantasys- chuck em to the wind. Imagine that you are a secret heir to an enormous fortune of love and success that is about to be actualized. The future is conspiring to shower you in ridiculous, laughable blessings. Everything other than that is burnt up tonight.


A RITUAL FOR MYSTICAL ACTIVISM:


    Create a sacred space for yourself with your most glittery, gorgeous sacred items. Light candles in a circle. Annoint yourself with oil and burn incense to open up your senses. Visualize a stream of miracles, liquid gold, pouring through your body, and centralizing around your heart. Write down anything that does not serve you and that you want to stop creating.

Place your left index and middle finger on the space between your mouth and nose and read the following, with as much Leo conviction as you can muster:

“I proclaim that my life is my own. I close all windows, portals, and doorways that would allow another to manipulate my life. I cast out all controlling and invasive energies I have experienced throughout the journey of my soul and all those connected to these energies. It is my intent that all aspects of my highest being be present. I choose to be well, whole and perfect of mind, body and soul. I call forth all soul expressions, elementals and thought forms to stand before me, as I stand before you, in love.

(Now read what you want to release from your paper)
I ask that you forgive and honor me. I forgive and honor you. I embrace you in love and I thank you for the lessons we have shared. I now choose to release all bonds between us and transmute them into unconditional love.

I command that all thought forms, energies, programs or substances that have been administers or that I have created, on all levels of my being, forming seperation, distortion, illness or illusion within my being,

now be transmuted into the divine expression of Creative Love.

Whatever laws I have owned, whatever beliefs I have held, whatever vows I have taken, whatever invocations I may hold, whatever contracts and agreements I have made, and those I have them with, that have allowed distortions, illusions, images holograms, symbols and psychic messages that prevent me from experiencing bliss within my being,

I now transmute into the divine expression of Creative Love.

I choose to be whole, complete, centered and balanced. I call forth all aspects of my being to align with me in divine perfection and integrate into the totality of my being.

I am Creative Love.

And so it is.”

Burn your paper and expect a monumental miracle.

Interdimensional Erotica by grace mcgrade

Woman is man’s terrestrial link to divinity.  Generously, women have reverberated into the cells and tissues of men, reverberating the abyss of consciousness from which we came, shifting and shimmering inside forever, like a madness. Leaving them aching, brilliantly, with the familiarity of non-existance.  Some women have reclaimed their power to levitate above time, to desert linear thought and fragmented consciousness, to reconvene with the sacred. To exaggerate passion. They remember how to use their nocturnal emissions to draw light out of the dark. They remembered that in their genetic coding, there is a capacity for alchemy, a euphoric bliss that expands and also paralyzes.  Some women know when they are being thought about, spoken about and when they are being masturbated to, particularly when we have allowed for our relationships with people to extend beyond the physical. The partners we collect and then detach from can feel like phantom limbs, like something that got lost in the dark, still there, still itching, but not solidified in flesh. Some of us know how to invite the etheric embodiments of people into our world, how to communicate with the subtle ghosts people leave in our bodies.   I like to make men mad, I like to see their feverous, greedy eyes, their heated, interrupted breath, hungry to digest something unattainable. I like to provoke them with my magnetism and then pull away, drawing back the light in the room.  It’s like the sound of doors unlocking, the jarring, discombobulating potency of powered femininity, something non physical, something holy.  Tell me how it feels, my darling, to be hip deep in a goddess, to be lapping in the waves of a thousand luscious vibrations, each one stronger than the previous.Tell me about the wicked emotions that make you tremor. Tell me about how I terrify you. Tell me what faction of heaven I take you to.  My heart is full of you, my phantom limb, itching in your absence. I think of your scars as exotic tattoos.

Woman is man’s terrestrial link to divinity.

Generously, women have reverberated into the cells and tissues of men, reverberating the abyss of consciousness from which we came, shifting and shimmering inside forever, like a madness. Leaving them aching, brilliantly, with the familiarity of non-existance.

Some women have reclaimed their power to levitate above time, to desert linear thought and fragmented consciousness, to reconvene with the sacred. To exaggerate passion. They remember how to use their nocturnal emissions to draw light out of the dark. They remembered that in their genetic coding, there is a capacity for alchemy, a euphoric bliss that expands and also paralyzes.

Some women know when they are being thought about, spoken about and when they are being masturbated to, particularly when we have allowed for our relationships with people to extend beyond the physical. The partners we collect and then detach from can feel like phantom limbs, like something that got lost in the dark, still there, still itching, but not solidified in flesh. Some of us know how to invite the etheric embodiments of people into our world, how to communicate with the subtle ghosts people leave in our bodies.

I like to make men mad, I like to see their feverous, greedy eyes, their heated, interrupted breath, hungry to digest something unattainable. I like to provoke them with my magnetism and then pull away, drawing back the light in the room.

It’s like the sound of doors unlocking, the jarring, discombobulating potency of powered femininity, something non physical, something holy.

Tell me how it feels, my darling, to be hip deep in a goddess, to be lapping in the waves of a thousand luscious vibrations, each one stronger than the previous.Tell me about the wicked emotions that make you tremor. Tell me about how I terrify you. Tell me what faction of heaven I take you to.

My heart is full of you, my phantom limb, itching in your absence. I think of your scars as exotic tattoos.


If You're Into That by grace mcgrade

I’ll be your strangest friend and your lover and your cosmic mother.  We can turn our family trauma into a three part musical and I’ll give you all the playtime you were deprived of in childhood. If you’re into polyamory, I can introduce you to all seven of me, each one with increasing entertainment value.  I’ll pull jokes out of me like emerald silk and get rich on your laughter.  I’ll give you massages, stroke your hair and read your palm, and even sometimes your mind. I promise to give you a personal tour of the neon underground rivers inside of me. I promise to be delightfully spontaneous and predictably on time. If your bored, I’ll make you pasta while I’m blindfolded, or spend the day hopping on one leg. I’ll nurture your wildest dreams and grant all your wishes when I bat my eyelashes. I’ll be your sleepy morning beach, your nighttime lightning forest. I’ll be your meat, your medicine, your holistic cigarette, your favourite book, your most treasured ring, your flame, your flower. I promise to be your solar powered sex toy, your personal blissed out water gun, your daily micro-dose of ecstasy. We can run away to the desert, to the mountains, to outer space. We can psychedelicize suburbia, we can give the stars new things to sing about, we can conjure up mischief and bathe in chocolate. If you’re into that.   Only if you’re into that.



I’ll be your strangest friend and your lover and your cosmic mother.

We can turn our family trauma into a three part musical and I’ll give you all the playtime you were deprived of in childhood. If you’re into polyamory, I can introduce you to all seven of me, each one with increasing entertainment value.

I’ll pull jokes out of me like emerald silk and get rich on your laughter.

I’ll give you massages, stroke your hair and read your palm, and even sometimes your mind. I promise to give you a personal tour of the neon underground rivers inside of me. I promise to be delightfully spontaneous and predictably on time. If your bored, I’ll make you pasta while I’m blindfolded, or spend the day hopping on one leg. I’ll nurture your wildest dreams and grant all your wishes when I bat my eyelashes. I’ll be your sleepy morning beach, your nighttime lightning forest. I’ll be your meat, your medicine, your holistic cigarette, your favourite book, your most treasured ring, your flame, your flower. I promise to be your solar powered sex toy, your personal blissed out water gun, your daily micro-dose of ecstasy. We can run away to the desert, to the mountains, to outer space. We can psychedelicize suburbia, we can give the stars new things to sing about, we can conjure up mischief and bathe in chocolate. If you’re into that.


Only if you’re into that.



How To Find Happiness During The Collapse Of Western Civilization by grace mcgrade

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We drastically underestimate the soul’s compulsion for inner transformation. The longing to be in a constant state of transmuting, shifting, flashing, glimmering, unstill. The Universe feels this, is this. That's why it provides us with the limitless entertainment of our ever developing stories. That's why we are always revisiting the challenges it sends our way, spiralling back, providing our curious, metamorphic souls with a sporadic, vast range of unpredictable learning. Replenish and expand that desire. Let it make you explore the world, explore someone else's body, explore altered states and heightened emotions. Let it, get high on it, and be aware of it. We are looking for the answers so we can burn them up, get free and dream up better questions.

Stop normalizing pessimism, ignore the factions of reality that require you to dumb down your imagination, or tell you cynicism and nihilism are trendy. These are not Maison Margiela accessories, they are burdens, and contribute to a collective level of negativity that serves no one. Live in a universe of your own invention. Guard against the inclement weather of fear, let the tumult of things like traffic and death and taxes and politics be fossilized in the background. Let the insurmountable opportunity of invisible dimensions seep through you, endlessly. There, the present and future mingle like jumbled mirrors, and sometimes, you can jump through them. Let yourself become immune to regular life, let dancing and candles and intentions precede the laws of physics and logic. Let your ecstatic hope blur the edges of things, and make your only devotion to commit to beauty, to expose your own emotions fearlessly, to be dangerously truthful and heighten curiosity til it makes you overflow.


Wear magic underwear from moss, strawberries and hummingbird feathers. Swim naked at midnight in the abyss of the dirty pacific ocean. Burst into hysteric laughter while having sex. Invent a magic tonic and distribute it to angry family members. Tell your collegues they are characters in your lucid dream. Search for miracles in dingy places. Believe everything you do can be touched by canopies of angels and fairies. Confess feelings always. Be mischievously compassionate. Laugh at the generosity of the sun in the middle of bumper to bumper traffic. Contort your naked body into strange positions in the mirror til you are drunk on absurdity. Rebuild from your muscle memory of paradise. Distribute sparklers and glitter, particularly when it is not appropriate. Compliment yourself out loud and get rich on bliss. Roll naked in dirt.  Try to pay for things in crystals. Resuscitate yourself from the ancient amnesia. Get free.



For Esther by grace mcgrade

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you are the phoenix on the horizon

beyond fathoming

beyond strange

awake where earth meets sea

bounded by traffic on either side

you are a space nymph

an angel incarnate

drawn by fine spun gold

borne of the place where lightning struck venus

a red wilderness split apart by blue flame

anchored only

by the ocean of the impossible

contained by porcelain or glass

with pearl feet that command storms

and a voice that bleeds roses

there will be those

who wish to cage you

who envy your light without eyes to see it

who wish to enrapture your divinity

piercing, quaking

at the sight of your intangible mysticism

they may wrestle your feet to the ground

the way the moon pleads to the stars:

stay put.

but you won’t.

set your spirit free to drift again

upon the starry place

live vividly, truthfully,

in the effervescence of your most opalic fantasies

douse yourself

in the crystallization of every experience possible

screaming for discovery

metamorphosize your wounds

dance madly between tenderness and passion

leave no stone unturned

leave all inhibitions to the racing wind

achieve resolution through revolution

and let streams of star glitter fall in your footprints

when your eyes are tired

of being so wide and so awake

tired of seeing through veils and shattered shadings

tired of leaving light where others only leave shadow

live from your inner eternity,

the starry place,

they will follow.

imagined things by grace mcgrade

He thought about her endlessly.

He thought about how she seemed to carry the furious sun in her mane, and how she had more hair than she needed.

About the continuous redness of her plump lips, always pouting, slightly pursed open, on the brink of gasping something either absurd or profound.

About her cobwebbed eyelashes, concealing her giant topaz colored eyes, always twinkling with secrets and half grins. She was wickedly clever, too clever for anyone’s good. Wickedly funny, fawn eyed and awake.

He could still feel the aura of unreality she wore with her, the weight of her body on his, that made him vibrate and tingle with a sense of strangeness and simultaneous familiarity. They way her kisses clung to his throat like moistened stars.

He sought now, more than ever, to understand the inner workings of her universe, the subtle complexities of her mind. The way she seemed to levitate above reality, atom thin. Her nonchalance was a love spell like no other.

The hum of unmet desire and curiosity grew louder and louder in his chest, projecting him through a kaleidoscope of possibilities, folding in and out of each other like laser origami.

His imagination, which had always been a place of the deepest solace, was no longer enough. He sprung into action, backed by the fiery mass of emotion that she had ignited within him, his heart jerking and pumping from something that finally, wasn’t cocaine.